Motherhood Again

After 3 years of total conviction that I was never having another child, now we are. I even gave everything away because I knew I wouldn't need it. Both sets of grandparents and lots of my friends are in shock over the news.

Why didn't I want to? It's complicated...

First I had a horrendous horrendous pregnancy. I had severe morning sickness from the moment of conception to the moment the baby came out.

Then I had an emergency caesarean and lost lots of blood.

Then Molly had terrible colic and screamed all day every day from week 5 to week 12. (Although not at night thank god).

Then I hated being a mother for 2 and a half years and cried every day.

Eventually I got the right counsellor, sorted out some childhood issues (it was all my parents fault!) and now i'm happy and everything is fine. Now I don't mind being a mother and sometimes quite like it, I don't cry anymore and I love my daughter so much it hurts.

And lo and behold as soon as I sorted out my head I passionately wanted another one! This is a happy ending story too because this pregnancy (so far) has been nothing like the first and with just a normal level of sickness.